MIA

It has been almost a year now since I first started this blog. I started it because I love to write and thought it would be a great way for me to *tell our tale* and have fun with it. And I have enjoyed it so much!

Right now, I'm in a stump. I find it hard to write, because, quite frankly, I am having trouble seeing the fun tales to tell! I figure I'll be honest and state that there is  a struggle going on right now and it seems to be my main focus. Getting through the day is tough. Finding time to blog is even tougher.

I'm having a little struggle with God right now. Not my faith in Him, but just not liking certain aspects of my life right now. There are parts of me who are screaming and stomping my feet and shouting, "It's too much! I can't do it! You're asking too much this time! It's not fair."

Then, there is the reasonable part who knows I should put my big girl panties on and deal with it. Except, I can't seem to find them. (If you find them, can you please send them my way?)

Last night, Punky and I were working on memorizing the moves for a VBS concert that our childrens choir is giving in a couple of weeks. I didn't want to do it. I told her, not even so and so could talk me into doing a VBS musical with her, and we've been friends for almost 17 years! And yet, somehow, here I am; looking foolish and doing it anyway. Last night, I wanted chocolate and my bed. Let me wallow, God.

But, I did it anyway. And unknown to those surrounding my ineptness when it comes to stuff like this, I was actually able to get my brain away from the temper tantrum stewing in my head, if only for an hour. But this morning, I was able to wake up with a song in my head. Ok, it's a VBS song, but these words are what keep going through my stubborn brain this morning.

God Knows

God Hears

God Leads

God Speaks

God Knows

God Loves

God Cares about Me

So I will cast my cares on the Lord, because He cares for me

I will trust in Him, no matter what

'Cause I know He will never stop, caring for me

It seems to me, that He knows I'm having trouble seeing Him right now, so He's bound and determined to prove it to me, if only through a child's VBS song that I can't get out of my head.