I don't often share the really personal things that go on in my life on my blog, but something happened yesterday that I just don't can't hold back. I've been processing for the past 24 hours now and I think I have it.
I just don't know where to start; the beginning is too far back. I can say this; there is definite healing that needs to take place in my family; I mean my whole family. My niece and nephew have been with us for six months now and it has been a rocky road. I'm not here to write about that. I'm here to write about this.
For days now I've been in turmoil over a meeting that was to take place yesterday. I didn't really know what would happen, but I figured it wouldn't be great; these meetings never are. By yesterday morning, my stomach was in knots. I finally sat down and begged God to please do something to remind me that He is in control and that our work is not in vain.
58 Therefore, my
beloved brethren, be steadfast, immovable, always abounding in the work
of the Lord, knowing that your labor is not in vain in the Lord.
1 Corinthians 15:58
Shall renew their strength;
They shall mount up with wings like eagles,
They shall run and not be weary,
Isaiah 40:31
And I headed off to the meeting.
And it wasn't fun. And yes, I cried. Ugh…I really don't like crying.
And God took over. I know it was Him, you see, because He is amazing. He left no doubt in my mind.
At the end of the meeting, I wanted to shout, "God used the state to order my family into church together." How funny is that? God has a sense of humor, too, I'm finding.
All I know, is that for the next several months, my brother will be joining us in church; as a family. I'm pretty sure that He has a plan for His work to be done during this time; cause He's just amazing like that.