Mothers/Daughters

This weekend, B-boo is out of town. I was supposed to be on this trip with our youth, but because of my recent illness, I'm stuck at home in bed instead.

But I miss her. I've been thinking a lot lately about how close we are. I sometimes wonder if it's a one-sided view, but I don't think so. I'm thinking the phone calls have proved that. B-boo and I have spent a lot of one on one time together. She is fiercely protective of me; my illness has definitely had an impact on her. She's been a wonderful nurse to me and I am so glad she went on this trip without me.

But I miss her. As a competitive gymnasts for four years, she traveled a lot. And so I traveled with her. We had plenty of time to build a relationship. When she quit, I was so sad that we would not take these trips anymore. And then she got sick. And instead of waiting in an airport or bonding in a hotel, we spent many hours in the waiting room of doctor after doctor. Yahtzee on my cell phone in the waiting rooms became routine. Movies and conversations in my bedroom while she recovered from surgeries brought us even closer.

And now, party planning and house cleaning and Wednesday nights with chocolate; all of these keep our relationship going. So yes, I miss her.

And I was telling hubby yesterday as I received a text from her letting us know she was ok; that I can only hope to have the same relationship with the Drama Queen as I have with B-boo. I wonder; because the Drama Queen has such a hold on her relationship with her Daddy. And that is ok, I understand her being Daddy's Girl.

She is such a ball of fire and ready to take off at any given minute. She is so different from B-boo. Tonight, we talked about her continuing to home school while I gave her a french manicure. She wanted me to take her to have one; I couldn't do that, but I could give her one myself. She was thrilled! And we talked about the things we could do and places we can go and the fun we can have.

Yes, she is different. She has different ideas and needs and wants. But I found out tonight, that I am definitely in the running. When it comes to the fun girl stuff and talking and laughing, she wants that with me.

So, while I miss B-boo terribly this weekend; I am using the time to fill some moments with the Drama Queen.