Compassion

Last week was not a fun week. Sunday was slightly difficult. It was a morning where I just wanted to be able to sit and worship in church and not have to deal with any life. Just Worship and Praise. Instead, by the time Worship came, I was a little distracted and trying hard to relax and let it be.

I sat next to a friend who knew just why I was feeling this way. And just when I thought I'd been *given the freedom button* to have one hour of peace, I was given a dose of reality; a reminder of my current life situation, one that I won't be free of anytime soon. There was to be no break for me on any day of this week. And it really stunk to high heaven!

I guess you could say I had a bit of a bad attitude. I *should* be able to come to church and worship without having to deal with this stuff, right? Isn't it enough that I have to deal with it day in and day out with no end in sight? Isn't it enough that my family is working so hard while it seems like another is on vacation? Obviously, my head and heart were not in the right place by the time I sat down to worship. And God was not about to let me get away with my pity party on this Sunday morning either. As I sat back down, the following words filled the screen.

"Everyone needs Compassion.
The kindness of a Savior."

Conviction, cutting right to the heart, reminding me of what my Savior has done for me. And that it's not all about me. And that this is not my church, this is His church.  And that the other woman sitting next to me needed compassion today….and the kindness of a Savior. And that He had mercy on me, and I should have mercy with her.  I looked at my friend sitting to my right. We both knew at that moment that God was speaking to me through this song; through Worship in His church. And in that moment, I was finally able to truly Worship and experience the peace that I desperately needed.